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May 30, 2012 9:25:27 GMT -8
Post by CandyCoatedCute on May 30, 2012 9:25:27 GMT -8
I have at most one IRL friend. I can't tell if she actually likes me or not though.
Sometimes I think about stabbing parts of my body with needles when they hurt.
When I buy myself candy or similar thing I feel bad if I don't share them.
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Jun 8, 2012 19:10:10 GMT -8
Post by Spectraitor on Jun 8, 2012 19:10:10 GMT -8
I regret getting to know some people on these boards. I also regret not keeping in touch with certain members.
Oh, and as a secret sometimes I lie because I pankick. For example, teacher reading my essay out loud as a sterling example to the class? Blush. School mate asking if it was mine? NOPE, got no clue whose it is why you asking me?
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xander
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Aug 19, 2012 18:29:12 GMT -8
Post by xander on Aug 19, 2012 18:29:12 GMT -8
i don't consider anyone i know as 'friends.' 'friends' have a give and take relationship. they talk about stupid things, important things, hang out and keep each other up when they're falling down. i don't have that kind of thing with anyone. that isn't to say said people aren't good people--they totally are--i just don't have that kind of connection with any of them.
to be honest, i outright refuse to have them.
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Sept 7, 2013 10:49:18 GMT -8
Post by EquinoxSolstice92 on Sept 7, 2013 10:49:18 GMT -8
I felt like I'm all alone. Sometimes, I don't feel like I belong elsewhere. However, for the first time, I felt like I belong and that's on Legend Fire and a Facebook group. I felt like I found my neighborhood.
My grandmother is a bitch and sometimes, I just want to get away from her.
I hate it when my aunt doesn't care for her older son and neglects him. I have no problem with her going on the internet but for fuck sake, when your son wants something, give that to him. I'm not his fucking mother. He's not my child. I think she treats him more like a little brother than an actual son.
My family just gets on my nerve sometimes and I hate how they criticize me and my boyfriend. Families should be concerned but don't get over-involved in my love life. BACK OFF and let me make mistakes. Let me learn on my own.
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Sept 8, 2013 3:38:41 GMT -8
Post by arcanius on Sept 8, 2013 3:38:41 GMT -8
Well what do you know, I'm not alone am I, though given the fact that I'm the family dissapointment that isn't much of a surprise, my mother constantly tells me how I'll fail in life if I don't do chores she gives me - way to go you exploiters. My dad is just a jerk, drinking, smoking and constant blaming me for helf the stuff wrong in his life - I don't know anything, I can't do anything, I fail at everything... A thousand curses for you my dear relatives
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Sept 8, 2013 12:03:26 GMT -8
Post by Alkonost Storm on Sept 8, 2013 12:03:26 GMT -8
Spoiler I would have no qualms about dying young. I wouldn't try to off myself but I really have no objections to dying young simply because I'm 25 with nothing to show for it.
I have a lot of affection towards one guy on this site but I can't help wondering if its starting to die down. And I don't want it to. D:
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Sept 8, 2013 12:23:22 GMT -8
Post by Penny Royals on Sept 8, 2013 12:23:22 GMT -8
Sometimes I feel like I have no real personality and no real views for myself. Like I'm a blank slate that can be changed at any moment by the people I'm around.
I'm constantly afraid you'll leave me. That you'll find someone else, or that you'll grow bored with me, or that I'll cross some line for you... it terrifies me.
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Sept 16, 2013 10:07:36 GMT -8
Post by EquinoxSolstice92 on Sept 16, 2013 10:07:36 GMT -8
I hate the house that I live in right now because sometimes I felt like I have no freedom in this house. One day, I'm just gonna snap and I won't hesitate to hurt anybody. I could hurt my five year old cousin and my grandmother. I have fantasies that I would put duct tape to her mouth and beating the shit out of her because she annoys me that bad. Sometimes, I hold back so much anger, it's not even funny anymore. She's been pushing my buttons and she pushes me to the limit. This household that I live in has so much hostility that it's like a ticking time bomb. Eventually, everyone in the house is gonna explode because apparently, we can't live together. There's so much personality clashing that I'm surprised that nobody has hurt or killed anybody.
I also have fantasies of killing my uncle who made our lives a living hell. He didn't put himself together, he's a drug addict, and he leeches off his 63 year old mother.
I have had it that I want to pull out a knife and kill them off.
I just wanna move out of the house so bad so that I could be in charge and I WANT TO BE THE BOSS. They better not tell me what to do once I have my own place.
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Post by EquinoxSolstice92 on Oct 7, 2013 1:34:49 GMT -8
The reason why I tend to procrastinate when it comes to writing is because of my lack of confidence in my writing abilities. I've only been writing since 2010 so why do I feel bad?
Sometimes I feel like my family doesn't give me any attention whatsoever and they tend to focus on my cousins instead. I thought that they don't care for me anymore.
I have a feeling that my grandmother talks smack about me behind my back. I hate that my family are so shallow sometimes. They care more about looks than anything else. They tend to criticize other people's looks and honestly, it makes me feel inferior since I'm still insecure about my image. They just gossip so damn much.
I feel like they alienate me sometimes and ignores me on purpose. I felt ignored in this house. I feel like the only ones I have are my boyfriend and my cat.
I have fantasies of running away from home just to see if my family would miss me. I don't think they would.
The reason why I talk too much is that I want the attention to be on me.
I always feel lonely.
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Oct 26, 2013 8:10:38 GMT -8
Post by EquinoxSolstice92 on Oct 26, 2013 8:10:38 GMT -8
I still love coloring books even though I'm already 21. Coloring books are mostly for 5 year old kids but I still love it.
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